First off, I just wanted to say LONG TIME NO SEE! Though I guess all of you have also "long time no see" this blog. Bleah. I'll still post randomly! wahahaha.

Next up, I just felt like this needs to go on our hospi blog. It's like kinda a big moment!

This be our new Hospi Head! Hello Don!:) (big moment calls for BIG picture. hehe)

Ok so on to what I really wanted to post. I can't remember where I got this from, but I read it somewhere and typed it into my phone.

You know what I think we are most afraid of? Not knowing. Not knowing whether it's all really worth it. not knowing if you should give up or keep fighting. Not knowing why you do the things you do; not knowing the purpose. It's like when you're little and you touch the stove and get burned, because you didn't really know it was hot. Not knowing has always hurt us, from the very beginning.

This really struck me. Hard. It's always not knowing what's going to happen that makes us so cautious, makes us so wary, makes us hold back. If not knowing hurts us, then conversely, knowing will keep us safe? I guess we are all lost at different times of our lives. Wondering why am I doing this? What's the reason? What's the purpose? And that big unknown scares us away. Makes us run away from what we are doing. But the thing I've come to learn is, the more you run away, the less you will know. It gets to a point where you can only learn frmo what you experience, what you see, what you feel, waht you hear. If you just run away from whatever you are doing just because you don't see the purpose, then we will be running our whole lives.

I've been with Amp and Hospi for about close to 2years now. There have been so many things I don't know, so many things I do even though I don't know the purpose. Some I still don't know. But there are also so many that through doing them and staying on in the community and listening to what everyone has to share, I've learnt what the purpose is. When we first started the designated huggers, I thought it was just to be another welcome party. To me it was just a simple task of hugging people as they walk in(which I did before that anyways) But I truly understood the reason recently. A friend of mine shared with me that there have been a few occasions where she came alone and when she opened the door to the small audi, she got scared, closed the door, walked out of csc and headed home. If someone had been there to welcome her, make her feel comfortable, guide her into the room, I'm sure she would have gone in. The effect of one simple "Hey, come on in" makes a huge difference. People walk in and out all the time. Let's try to make it people walk in all the time. Make the out not an option.

I'm sure we all have faced different times in our lives where "Not knowing" has stopped us from doing things, from saying things, from serving. That's why there's the need to keep coming back, keep asking, keep learning, keep knowing. Don't let the "Not knowing" be a hindrance to our lives and our service. If you're lost or confused or lost the sense of purpose, just always know that we are all searching for that purpose. Come and do it together. The most important is to not leave. Coz when you leave, the chance of you knowing will not come, and you will spend your life "Not knowing" and getting hurt.