So the day sees everything going on smoothly,
Found a suitable building: Check! , Last Letter: Check!
The only time i could cry was during Bath time cause nobody will know. It was only with god's grace that I was given the courage to tell my mother about my plan. & i just wannna thank God for i will prolly go ahead with the plan if i hadnt consult her. Both of us broke down and cried. From then on, mommy lowered her expectations and goals for me to meet, so long as i give it my best shot, she'll be contented.
Things started to fall in place after my YI? (Liberation- Dec 2008) cause i was able to better comprehend things & appreciate them for their existence.
I was in the midst of my RCIA journey when my RCIA mate then(Amplify mate now!) approached me and handed me a card. It was the registration card for YI. Knowing i am never the holy moly kind, i told Danny, huh camp? sorry i dont like camps Dan! However, Despite my rejection, Danny was always patient and kind towards me. I see Jesus in him! ^^He just told me to bring the form back and fill it in when im ready. I NEVER LIKE camps, not to mention church camps. Camps are a waste of time.
One day, I just dont know what came over me, and i just filled the form and passed it to Danny. Unknowingly, It was god's calling for me.
The day came with me being really skeptical. How interesting can a church camp be? If school camps are already killing me, what's more with church camps with all the alleluia alleluia songs right?
Guess i was utterly wrong. This is the camp that changed my entire life and perceptions of how I see things now. Without this camp, i wouldnt find my motivation to keep my faith strong. It was on the last day of YI that i vow to serve God's people and his kingdom through a Ministry.
Throughout the camp, I received a whole lot of care and concern, the group sharings were a source of vitamins for me to grow and realise God's overpowering love for me. During the whole camp, my prayer intention was solely to hear God speaking to me. Indeed, he did, not literally but through acts of the service team- the way they cared for us, the way we were being treated, the way our facils treated us, the way the whole itinery was planned.
It was really really awesome pawesome that i couldn't believe it. It was near to perfection.
As time passed, I have learned to appreciate the advice given to me by my FACS(Antonia&Joseph). The whole camp made me realise how special i was in the eyes of God despite my unworthiness. & It was during the time before confession that God touched me in a special way. I could still remember the background music played: "Spirit of God, Lift me Up"
Oh, and I was the only non-catholic to go for confession because apparently all the priests mentioned that the non-catholics are not bound by sins? & that priority are given to the Catholics :( But PRAISE GOD, I was really lucky to meet this particular priest and he even taught me how to go about confessing during a confession. Cool yar!? He was so patient and nice that i felt God's presence in him, and i just teared when im in the midst of it.
Healing night was even awesome as i learned to open up. I vowed to God that i will never ever go back to my old ways and that i will start life anew. While the intercessors were praying over me, I just feel the urge to cry as loud as i could. It's been a long time since i last cried my lungs out lor! It seemed as though God wanted me to leave all my burdens to him! :D
After the last event of the camp, i just got the urge and calling to serve in the ministry and so Joseph(my facil then, and now my fighting partner,HAHAHA) encouraged me to join the hospi team since he's inside too. From then on, there was no looking back! >:DDDD YAY.
Ever since then, i broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years(with God's grace), although it was difficult to muster the courage, glad i did. Now that im able to concentrate on my spiritual life, im proud to say that Jesus is my king and I TOTALLY ENJOY SERVING HIS PEOPLE AND HIS KINGDOM with OTHER HOSPI LAMBS ^^
Let YI be an awesome pawsome experience for you too, serve in a ministry to stay strong in faith and to serve God's people for you'll feel a sense of accomplishment through doing god's work. SERVE IN HOSPI NOW!
